An advocate finds her voice
What sparked Arzah’s interest in cure research was meeting the only known person to be cured of HIV: Timothy Ray Brown, who spoke in Seattle at an event sponsored by the defeatHIV CAB. By then she was working at BABES Network, a Seattle YWCA-based peer education and support program for women with HIV. She had found her voice as an HIV advocate.
It wasn’t easy. When she was 9, Arzah had moved to Port Townsend with her foster mom, who adopted her and whom she credits with “making sure I would have as normal a childhood as possible.” But as the new kid in a small-town school, the only African-American in her grade and the only person she knew with HIV, “normal” felt elusive.
“Moving was when I had to grapple with my identity of being HIV positive, especially in a small town,” she said. “When I was a kid, it was a secret for a while. I knew I was different. I didn’t really know if anyone else was dealing with it.”
After high school, in an adolescent bid for independence, Arzah moved to Bellingham. Her mom had been the one to insist — sometimes forcibly — that Arzah take her daily medications, which in the early days meant three times a day, three pills at a time. With help, she found a doctor, a caseworker and even other people with HIV — but most of them were older gay white men.
“No one looked like me,” she said. “I felt even more alone, knowing no one shared a single story that was like mine.”
So she stopped taking her treatment regularly. She struggled, she said, with her diagnosis. She just wanted to focus on being a young adult, which came with its own issues.
Then a confidant from her past life reached out and offered support. She brought Arzah to Seattle and introduced her to BABES. Here at last were women living with HIV, and although she was younger than they were, they soon became mentors and sisters to her. One of BABES' founders, she learned, had even been her birth mother’s caseworker and had visited Tradell in the hospital the day he died.
“I felt really bad that after I was taken to a foster home, she had had no clue what had happened to me over all those years,” Arzah said. “She was so happy to see that I turned out okay.”
Joining the conversation on cure
Arzah has thrived as an advocate at BABES. In 2016 she was named one of the “amazing HIV-positive people of 2016” by Plus magazine. Last month POZ listed her in The Poz 100 Celebrating Women.
She has reconnected with her father, who had become HIV-infected while battling substance abuse but is sober now and on antiretroviral treatment. She also maintains a relationship with her youngest brother, who is HIV negative and who had been adopted by another family.
Arzah is so comfortable now with her identity — as a queer woman, a black feminist and a person with HIV — that she admits that a cure seems both exciting and scary.
“I don’t know a life without HIV,” she said.
But she does know that HIV is not over, that stigma still exists and that big swaths of people — some of them female, many of them young and black- or brown-skinned, like her — don’t have access to prevention or treatment or even just information on HIV.
She doesn’t want that to be the case with any future cure. Having struggled so long to find her voice, she wants to make sure others are heard too.
“That’s what I love about defeatHIV,” she said “They invite that conversation to happen. We get the opportunity to talk to the scientists. We get to tell them, ‘Women have concerns. Young people have concerns about getting involved.’”
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